Hello dear beautiful world and hello dear beautiful friends! Today the clouds just couldn’t be any more perfect and the weather absolutely sings to my soul! The Canine Tenors are out in the backyard singing to the squirrels, singing to the neighbors and just generally singing to life and to anyone else who will listen!
Oh yes, there were problems to solve and ok….SOME aggravations….some mysteries that are still elusive and yes, GOSH it was hard to work when it feels so much like true “make-your-heart-dance” SPRING!
And yet….I can SEE the progress all around me….! Yes, believing IS seeing and (in spite of my “old mind”s” attempt to keep me in check…wink!) my new beliefs seem to be creating things that definitely resemble a light at the end of the tunnel!
Ok, ok…. I KNOW that we have sometimes been told that in order to be effective and to properly “deal” with reality, we have to “get to the bottom” of the issue….roll up our sleeves…”dig deep”…dissect those tender spots and really wrestle those demons to the ground…… (and this was said to a child who found the Roadrunner and the Three Stooges too violent….no wonder, the very thought of that had me hyperventilating, but I did try…..!)
Yes, I tried to follow the directions on the package called “life” and I trained my brain to go over and over and over AND OVER those irritating, unfulfilling, “knock me to my knees and leave me crying” moments…. I kept thinking that if I looked at the problem from enough angles, I would somehow (magically?) wake up one day and be purged of the pain that had left me breathless and angry or hurt….
Well, my dear darling friends, as I awoke one day to find myself in a relationship filled with terror, anger and addiction, I decided that (respectfully) this approach of trying to relive these moments in hopes of finding the missing link just wasn’t working…. Yes, living through them once was quite enough… I was at the point where my anxiety was at such a level that I couldn’t even drive on the highway. My stress was already so high that just the addition of basic “highway sensitivity” tossed me into an anxiety attack. I was shocked to find myself in that position, but there I was….
Yes, I did try to undo the effects of my scenario by “putting on a happy face” and pretending that all was well, but those results were equally ineffective. My brain knew how I truly felt and it wasn’t warm and fuzzy…. Any affirmations that I made only made my attempts at feeling that fuzziness seem like sandpaper. My brain just rolled its eyes and told me that we weren’t quite “there” yet….!
So how to undo the stalemate?
I began to play….yes, play…..I discovered a book called “Ask and It is Given” (by Jerry and Esther Hicks) that literally fell on the floor at my feet as I was walking through a different section of the book store. And as the old saying goes, “And the rest is history…”
Learning to play wasn’t easy, because I had bought into the idea that play is the opposite of work. I assure you it is not–wink–and for me, play can be infinitely more PRODUCTIVE than work. At the risk of being cliche, I can’t help but quote James Matthew Barrie from Peter Pan (after all this IS the Tinkerbell Project….wink again…)
“It is not real work unless you would rather be doing something else.”
Allow me to add my own Tinkerbell wisdom to the quote and to say, “….so if you love what you do then you will never work a day in your life….”
Yes, I began to use deliberate play….”mind games” that my mind would accept because I called them “games”. I would imagine and envision great outcomes….great dreams….great loving conversations and great feelings….I began to play to identify the feelings that I wanted to feel…the essence of what I was wishing for…. I spent more mind time at the “top” of my game than at the “bottom of it all”. (Because—as Esther Hicks/Abraham has said— THERE IS NO BOTTOM…..) And if it’s “play”, what can be the harm in it? It certainly felt better than the infinite repeat of angst and drama….
And guess what…..things began to change…..”for no logical reason”, my “luck” seemed to be improving…. I could feel a big huge sigh and I began to rewire my own inner machine and I began the process of learning to empower myself—versus my habit of just “dealing with” whatever came my way….
Part of the “play” was to find joy in my day….in my work…in my chores…even in the most crotchedly, complainy and thorn in my side folks who happened to come my way….
After all, was I really obligated to play by the rules….? Rules that said that conditions had to be a certain way for me to be “entitled” to be happy….? Hmnnnn…..now THAT was an interesting concept….because then I was no longer obligated to be a victim….because a victim has to FEEL like a victim in order to be one….don’t they…..(can you feel me smile….nothing wrong with a cheshire cat in the middle of a Peter Pan story….)
And so the story continues for several years….it started with baby steps until my entire world and my entire perception of my world began to shift….
Yes, I have become a bit of a rebel. I DO identify what I don’t like, but I don’t program it into my viewing favorites.
These days, I play the game of how many times can I get to the TOP OF IT….(forget the bottom of it….)? How many new ideas can I sift from the challenge…. Where’s the hidden brainstorm in that particular problem? And how many wonderful “mundane” things can I actually feel GRATEFUL for?
And in the process, how many times during the day can I remember to stop and simply BASK IN THIS PROCESS??
We are alive and we are living in a super exciting time on this planet! Our fellow humans are brimming with wonderful ideas and innovations. AS ARE WE! There are opportunities that our ancestors never dreamed of. We have more freedom to learn and to choose and to pass joyous knowledge on to our children. We are living in a world where there is more encouragement to truly share our uniqueness. We are the pioneers in a new unfolding….
Sooooo….as I wind down this particular day, I send out my smiles and my very best wishes and I say let’s reinvent the rules….let’s dump the game of “what’s wrong with this picture” and replace it with our revised version of “what’s RIGHT with this picture….?” Let’s tuck those troubles into bed and thank them for the great ideas that they spawn, but let’s rise to the top and then soar and soar and soar……
Time to leave our cocoons and “rise” to the occasion! Have a blissful evening, dear friends!! What a great time it is to be alive….Onwards and (yes) UPWARD!!!!